Saturday, June 26, 2010
This will be my last time that I'll give my heart to anyone.
Once bitten, twice shy.
This heart ache is too much for me to take.
Guess I've made up my mind.
Good Bye.
Y12:32 AM
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
S.H.E - 少了一个人
朋 友聚会 吵闹的快乐
在她们离开以后 变稀薄
走路回家 回像山洞的窝
突然渴望有人 能来接我
泡著热水在浴 室 赖著
思念却也被滚烫 冒烟了
最后的简讯 看到能背了
多久没有再联络 一想还是痛
少了一个人 宠爱我
朋友的爱 成分就是不同
最 难过 是笑著面对 被羡慕自由
练很久的成熟 也快遮掩不住 寂寞
妈妈在电话里挂 念我
上次欲言又止她 还记得
喜欢装没事 其实最累了
但我清楚很多事 哭了也没用
少了一个人 拥抱我
那种拥抱 能够忘了所有
两个人 就算下雪后 赤脚逆著风
也不觉 得冰冻 还笑得比阳光 炽热
少了一个人 懂得我
能够体会 我倔强又脆弱
不记仇 温柔原谅我 情绪太波动
用泪光舍不得 融化我累积的 寂寞
很 固执 无条件爱 我从来没变过
在大吵的时候 会抱著我沉默 不动
Y7:25 PM
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
I'm still as shameful as before.
Shameful till you dont even dare to mention single word.
But it's ok, expected.
You want to see whether I did mention about you,
how much I miss you, how much I love you,
how upset I'm after the break up right?
This will be the last time I'm writing about you over here.
You know what, the thing I'm most heartbroken is,
you makes me feel I'm so awful till you just dont even WANT to say anything.
Up to this state,
you just made me utterly speechless.
Y7:34 PM
Friday, June 18, 2010
I want to fall in love again.
I want to look forward to the life that we're living in 5 years time like what you claimed.
I want to give the rest of my life to you so so much.
If only you're the right one for me.
Y4:12 PM
Thursday, June 17, 2010
I'm not worth enough for you to even express yourself.
I really expect too much from you.
Thank god I restricted myself to go your blog and FB.
If not I'll probably go berserk.
I really doubt my place in your heart.
Y7:29 PM
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
It's awfully cooling today,
I detest raining day.
Neither I'm in love with sunny day.
Just a little combination of sunlight and wind would be perfect.
The whole of today,
I just could not get my eyes open wide big.
It's such a temptation to sleep at work,
and I did it.
For like probably 20 minutes?
Thanks god, today passes very fast.
This 1 day, I've been thinking and thinking.
How could I let my life revolve around you where your life doesn't revolve around me?
I started to feel stupid and foolish now.
Somehow deep inside of me,
I really abhor, hate and detest you.
Just something I could not let myself to forgive you.
You broke the golden rule in a relationship,
You broke your promises.
Sometime, I'll just step a little bit further away from you.
I cant let myself fall in that state anymore.
It's just too much for me to tolerate.
I'm getting sick of your empty promises,
you are just so inconsistent.
Y8:13 PM
Monday, June 14, 2010
Ima too lazy to do anything else.
Had a exciting weekend.
Passed my FTT, which is FINALLY. :)
Booked my TP, at august.
Cant wait to drive on road officially.
Went to Joshua 1st birthday celebration at Changi Village Hotel.
He's soooooooooo adorable when he ate his cake.
Then, went to town for movie with Baby, cyc and zhimian.
Watched A-Team,
Not so bad, just that there's a irritating guy sat behind me,
laughed like nobody business,
and his pitch was rarely high and sharp. yucks.
After movie, we went for singing session till nearly 2am.
Had some quick bite and zhimian was kind enough to send us home. (:
Sunday was kinda relaxing.
Baby slept till SOOOOOOOOOOOO LATE!
So difficult to wake him up!!!!!
I should find some effective ways to wake this lazy pig up. =X
Y7:27 PM
Friday, June 11, 2010
Hey Blog and People who are actually reading,
today, 11th June 2010 is a special day for Mr Nicholas Yeo and ME!
It's our 1st year anniversary. (: (: (:
It's a miracle for us to be able to celebrate this special day together,
as we've been through too much, and too hard.
This 1 year, a lot of changes, a lot of things happened.
Changing my weekend job to suit his time,
he enlisted to NS and lesser time to spare for me,
every tiffs and argument,
he really had a tough time to coax me, I'm real stubborn.
But after so much things,
both of us still holding each other's hand to spend the rest of our day.
And this boyfriend of mine, very romantic.
Chased me to shower, and asked me to take longer time.
something amiss.
Then when I came out, guess out.
He lighted his room up with candles,
and used flower petals to form a big heart on his bed.
HAHA. I cant even use a suitable word to express my feeling.
We spent the whole of today at Universal Studio.
Luckily darling asked his friend to buy the tickets in advance,
when we reached there at around 11 plus,
the tickets were already sold out. goodness.
People, Universal studio is damn fun..............
I really did enjoy myself with darling over there.
and the pricing of the ticket is definitely worth for the experience.
Lastly, I would like to thank my boyfriend,
for putting in so many effort to surprise me.
Even though you failed to send those tickets to me beforehand,
but I really appreciated all the things that you did baby. (:
With more and more years to come,
Happy 1st year anniversary.
I LOVE YOU, BABY. (:
Y11:31 PM
Monday, June 7, 2010
I don't know why,
but I'll encounter that BLUE feeling every Monday.
Sounds ridiculous but still, I'm always having a low mood on Monday.
Today, the feeling is stronger than usual.
Had bad headache early in the morning,
yet still have to go to work.
Attachment is just a waste of time.
Cheap labour is bad enough,
not entitle any leave is even worst.
Pay us such a pathetic amount and want us to get a MC if we don't want to come that day, yet they ain't paying a cent on that day.
Lame shit.
2 more months, cant wait.
Had a small chat with my mum when I came back from work.
Regarding how important Honesty is in our lives.
Since young, we know honesty is the best policy.
We can lie to anyone and everyone on earth,
but we know deep inside our heart
all the things we've done and said.
Regardless bad mouthing, criticize , curse & swear etc,
or hurting people in any way, bleh bleh bleh,
we know exactly what are the things we actually did.
Thus, what I'm trying to say is,
Why people tend to lie to themselves about the things they did.
Is it so hard to admit your mistake and make some amendment?
Who will laugh at you just because you admit your mistake?
People who deny and refuse to admit their mistakes,
are just losers.
You can lie to everybody and being so untruthful to yourself,
not corresponding with fact or reality.
Just continue to lie to yourself and live in own wonderland.
People with or without high qualification,
with or without excellent speaking/writing language,
being rich or what,
as long as there's a strong sense of honesty running all over their bodies,
they must be someone who has good upbringing by their parents and an upright person.
I admit, I cant write well, I don't speak well,
it's my own fault that I don't take responsibilities for my own studies when I was young.
Brushing up my language,
not a difficult task.
Changing ones character,
it'll definitely take so much longer.
Baby, even if we stop everything,
nothing gonna change.
Even I stop visiting that place, I know that this issue will never end.
I'm take your words and ignore everything.
We're living in a country with freedom of speech.
That's pretty bad, but I don't care.
I would love to spend all my precious time on you, my beloved darling.
and shower you with all my attention and love.
LOVE IS IN THE AIR. (:
Me: "Baby, I'm feeling unwell. :("
Darling: "You know why? Cause you didn't sleep with me. Without my hug. that's why babe. :)"
I love you! (:
Labels: 4 more days. :)
Y7:32 PM
Saturday, June 5, 2010
It's a Saturday and I'm staying at home.
Baby has standby so no choice.
I'm so used to spend every weekend with him,
where we fall asleep together,
spend time with his family,
playing with Baby Joshua,
watching movies,
doing stupid things and laugh at each other.
He gives me all his available time and give up his gaming time.
You're so nice love. (:
Haha. Glad that he feels the same way too.
Blissful. ^^
Yesterday went for dinner and movie session with sisters.
Watched Nightmare On Elm Street,
and I swear the movie........................... IS SUPER THRILLING.
Spent money and pay cheap thrill. lol.
"Remember to set alarm; awww, I don't dare to sleep later"
After the movie, those are what the 4 of us kept saying.
Lame shit, lol.
Just glad that all of us actually spare time for this gathering. (:
Labels: 5 MORE DAYS TO 1ST YEAR ANNIVERSARY
Y6:51 PM
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
2 more days to weekend,
and this weekend gonna be super super boring.
Baby has to standby for something and cant come out this weekend.
sigh.
I'll have some meet up sessions with sisters and friends. (:
Last 8 weeks of attachment,
endure!
Y10:35 PM
